Archives for the month of: August, 2011

BEYONCE OFFICIALLY ANNOUNCED HER PREGNANCY TO JUSTJARED.COM AND WAS SHOWING OFF HER NEW MINI BABY BUMP AT THE MTV VMA AWARDS!

I’M SO SYKED :-) FINALLY!

I just finished watching Sex In The City (the movie) and I always feel the need to write afterwards… I feel like Carrie Bradshaw in here fabulous New York apartment over looking what I hope I will achieve in my future. But there is no future without a past. Don’t get me wrong, experiences are good! Their a way of coming to grip with who you really are; and getting to know yourself inside and out. But with great experiences can come great pain. As a teenager spending most of my life divided between two houses, two parents and two families- it is so easy to get lost in the world you have been forced into. Lies are easier to tell, loyalties can be lost and found again and the simple joys of teenage life can be forgotten and wondered about.

Take today for example, I spent almost the whole of lunch staring at these two teenage boys, of course for more than one reason (they we’re HOT) but the most important reason was that I never really felt that feeling before. I never witnessed friendship like that, where teenagers can be so far away from home but feel so close to someone they love. I must admit- that depressed me a lot, and for the rest of the evening I fell silent and it didn’t help that on the way to the parking lot I saw the two boys plus ten other teenagers dancing and doing backflips and laughing. Having fun.  I really don’t think I’ve ever seen myself in that way. I’ve had trust issues with practically everyone in my friendship circle, I’ve had low self esteem issues since forever and worst of all, I relied on the worst people. I relied on the people who weren’t sure if they could do the same back. I tried too hard to be something I’m not for approval. People we’re impressed with my good grades or my high hopes for the future, they were interested in how many boys I’ve slept with or how many times I’ve come close to ‘doing it’. Being the silly girl I was – I fell for it; I lied and lied and lied and lied and for what? For approval of people that didn’t even deserve my time. For those girls to think no better of me than they think of themselves. THAT’S the sad part. As hard as it is to forget the past, I find it even harder to focus on the future, especially when the present is so dull and lifeless.

I focus on things that distract me the most; which mostly end up being my weight and attraction to boys. That plan always sucked. There was always a voice in my head telling me to except who I am and look at the positives, but I just couldn’t see them. So, as any normal teenager would, I altered myself to fit my perfect image. I changed my hair, I changed my fashion and worst of all, I changed myself… That had to be the most stupid thing I’ve done and I’m still paying for it now. But time goes on, my heart still beats and I will heal. Eventually.

 

… because we ALL know you need it.

Women focus on their appearence for two reasons; 1. to attract male attention 2. to boost confidence. But both lead to attracting attention, and trust me ladies, you want to do it the right way.

The natural look is much more appriciated than the fake ass $2 sew in look. I thought about this when I was on the bus and I could have sworn I saw this womans tracks, and then I got off the bus to see some womans weave shaped like a cone. What the hell is wrong with you people?! You can’t be that desperate to be walking around like that!! Its naturally proven that Americans are better at doing weave then English people. In England – you have to search HIGH and LOW to find a decent weave store and a decent hair dresser that doesnt make you look like you just came fresh off the hanger.

My grandmother, Sherry Dixon,  was a make up artist for a large part of her career and she constantly told me about the do’s and don’ts of hair, make up and fashion. I just wonder that maybe not everyone has had the same blessings that I have because the way I see some people strut out on the streets is just nasty. The only attention you gonna be attracting is birds picking at yo head.

So here are my do’s and don’ts on weaves!! (God knows some of ya’ll need it):

1. NO BRIGHT COLOURS

As you all know, we are NOT Rihanna. We can NOT pay £10, 000 for a wig, we can NOT walk around Croydon highstreet like this. As for the people who tried, look what happens:

FAIL.

2. ENOUGH WITH THE BLONDE!

Blonde is a very complicated colour to die your – it’s hard enough finding the right shade, let alone finding the right make of weave. Dark skin and blonde DOES NOT WORK. It just doesn’t. It’s not a racial thing, its not a team lightskin thing or nothing. HEY i’m light skin and I know I can’t die my hair blonde, because i’ll look like a fool.

We are NOT Beyonce, we can not PAY for people to find the right shade for us, and we do NOT have stylists to tell us what make up to use to compliment the hair. When WE try this, we look like a messed up barbie doll on crack, see for yourself:

WRONG.

3. LACEFRONT’S DONT WORK.

I don’t even need to tell you about yourself If you own a lacefront. TAKE IT BACK.

YES, I AM SHAMING YOU ALL.

4. YOU ARE NOT KERI HILSON

STOP trying to be Keri. Stop. Because you look like a fool wearing that jacked up lacefront with them cuts looking like you special, stop.

 

READ and take notice of these points, for the love of God.

 

Stop making music.

Just stop.

It’s gone, over and done with, pass the torch on to Kid Ink, Lil Twist, Khali, ANYONE, just stop making music.

This dude becoming like snoop, never knowing when to stop.

i like it :)

Aight, One point about Neptune beats is that they always sound unfinished, and sometimes they sound mad dope but then theres the other times where they just sound unfinished and lame. THIS is one of the tracks. Ameries harmonies are all wrong… theres no baseline, the song is just weird and boring and done before, Jakk frost has always been same old same old to me.. but I guess it depends on your view.

I don’t know what this is about, and I dont care.

Its official release was this week so STFU with the comments aight?

 

I LOVE songs that contain twitter references LOL. Especially when they say ‘retweet’ or ‘twitpic’ LOL, so this is an automatic download loool

“PHONES IN THE AIR, TWITPIC THAT”

BOW

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I FREAKING LOVE YOUNG SAM! JUST DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPE